You stay right where you are. You dig. You learn the simplest facts about yourself. You date yourself. You daydream until you discover something that makes your chest feel even the smallest spark of hope. You question your darkest thoughts. You create rituals, soul-opening routines. You begin exactly where what you have, and you work until you are, every with exactly detail is made beautiful. You let yourself feel what you feel. You begin to act in self-loving ways even, and maybe most espe cially, when you fear you don't deserve it. You realize that you are growing through the discomfort. You learn to let yourself be.