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BROKEN SOUL πŸ˜”

This is for the girls who have the tendency to stay up all night listening to music that reminds them of their certain situation. πŸ˜”

Who hide their fears, pain, hurt and tears under their smiles and laughs on a daily basis. The girls who wear their gears in their sleeves. πŸ˜”

The girls who pray things will work out just one time and they’ll be satisfied. The girls scream and cry in their pillows because the rest of the world fails to listen. πŸ˜”

The girls who have it hard but don’t let anyone know that. πŸ˜”

The girls who have so many secrets but will never tell. The girls who don’t always win. The girls stay up wondering if the one boy will ever notice. The girls who take life as it comes. The girls who will love all the hearts but will always get broken. πŸ˜”

This is for all the real girls.πŸ˜”

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BROKEN SOUL πŸ˜”

why do I feel empty why do I feel lost πŸ˜”

I see myself as a good-hearted person Filled with this weight on me ever since could remember. πŸ˜”

I genuinely have always felt out of place in myself. πŸ˜”

Like I don’t belong. πŸ˜”

that sparks my depression πŸ˜”

i can’t comprehend the thoughts in my mind because it hurts so much to re-evaluate them I’m scared of the time it gets too much. πŸ˜”

to where all my thoughts come crushing down πŸ˜”

on me and will take over πŸ˜”

Sometimes feel like I’m ahead of it and I’m stronger-willed than those thoughts but then the demons creep into my mind and manipulate those thoughts into my perception. πŸ˜”

πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”

Not even being able to put into words how I’m feeling πŸ˜”

it scares me πŸ˜”

I don’t feel like myself anymore and that’s terrifying.πŸ˜”

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Broken Soul πŸ˜”

I’m sorry….. I’m sorry that I can’t do anything right.

I’m sorry I’m a mistake.

I’m sorry that I’m such a burden and no one wants to be around me.

Maybe if I’m gone then no one will have to say these things to me anymore.

Maybe people will have one less thing to worry about.

No one knows that I’m breaking inside and it’s getting worse.

People tell me that they’re here for me but when need them no one is in sight to help me or they don’t want to because they think I’m being a drama queen.

But hey have a roof over my head.

And food.

So my life must not be that bad right?

Well, I’m sorry my brain doesn’t make the happy chemical as often as everyone else. But thinking like this is selfish.

Right?

BROKEN SOUL

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How Did You Feel

Well its taken years to tell anyone how l feel so when l listen with my ❀️ to anyone l give time for people to tell me anything in their own time as in any case l am not as important as they are this is their life and suffering not mine πŸ•ŠοΈ

So for the first time ever let me tell you about being a ‘ Man Abuse By A Woman ‘ who l forgive for all she did to me during the 11yrs it took to help her and one day realized she could not be helped anymore πŸ•ŠοΈ

Anyway it all began whilst working at the same office and we met and l took her out for what was called a date – and it was only then later l found out she had ditched her boyfriend and went out with me that night and as l now know – alarm bells should have been ringing but l wore my ❀️ on the sleeve kinda guy and believed everyone was like me – it would take many years to know they are not – anyway here’s my story πŸ˜”

We dated for a short-while and eventually began living together as we got on quite well – not as l was to find as well as l first thought – firstly may l say that even though l was abused she had suffered – not knowing her father and even though it does not justify her actions it does help people reading this to understand it is both Man & Woman who abused by circumstances in his or her life πŸ•ŠοΈ

Anyway soon after we moved in together abuse began by what l now call ‘ Intimidation ‘ and making me feel l was always in the wrong and she never was and this increased as she took control of my life eroding me – l will repeat Me – when anyone does that to someone else You disappear from view and as a person do not ‘ Exist ‘ anymore as you ‘ Do Not Matter ‘ πŸ˜”

This abuse involved – her saying you are causing me to be like this and you take no blame l took total blame for her being like she was and every time l ‘ Forgave Her ‘ for everything and all she did and just a few and more maybe later l will mention here to maybe help people in their future not to ‘ Blame Themselves ‘ πŸ˜”

The worst was when she would regularly threaten me with a ‘ Carving Knife ‘ to the neck and neck other parts of my body below the waist – laughing and threatening to cut them off – at the time l did not react just took the ‘ Verbal Abuse ‘ believing l deserved it and then she would say you ‘ Do Not Love Me Anymore ‘ and would apologize and in some cases go to the ‘ Bathroom ‘ and threatened to ‘ Commit Suicide ‘ and l would remove the door and get in and she would just ‘ Laugh ‘ and say that scared you – another argument and calm until next time πŸ•ŠοΈ

But still the same more threats – lies, and spending of all of my money and keeping hers for herself that got worst l paid everything and bought everything and she would use every penny she earned saying that mine if l ever asked πŸ•ŠοΈ

When we went out she drank – l drove and had no alcohol and before we left she ‘ Told Me ‘ what to say – Do not say that or this about our relationship when we are out with my brother and his girlfriend and of course l was so confused and spoke out of turn – dreading getting home and more verbal abuse – she would glare at me and l knew – got home more drink and more threats with a ‘ Knife ‘ and blame lies with me – Never her πŸ•ŠοΈ

This is the part of my story and the part that l titled – ‘ How Did I Feel ‘ well that did not matter and it was only years later l was able to even say anything about ‘ How l Felt ‘ as the ‘ Pain Hid It In Me ‘ and God brought me to someone who would ‘ Love Me For I Am ‘ and with Kindness & Love XX ❀️❀️ helped me to see l am worthwhile and not at fault for who she was and who she may still be – So Today l πŸ™πŸ™ for her today to get the same ‘ Help & Guidance ‘ l have been given – More soon

AMEN πŸ™

😌😌

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Bullies Intentionally Select Certain Peers for Targets

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Lost Children πŸ˜”

God loved you were born ❀ I love you still ❀ πŸ’— Forever in my Heart ❀

To all of us who have lost a Child πŸ˜”

Be kind to yourself 😌

Time out πŸ™‡β€β™‚οΈ

You are never the same 🀦

People say ~ you changed ! πŸ˜•

I’m happy they don’t walk in my shoes πŸ’β€β™€οΈ

You know when your world crashed and you lived in that glass house looking out at life going on and those cars were going past ” Don’t you know what happened ” πŸ˜₯

That’s being in a glass bottle drowning feeling ☹

People see you coming and cross the road remember that, I do πŸ˜“

But I understood why ! πŸ’«

People don’t know what to say, friends and colleagues stop ringing πŸ˜’

You learn to keep “Those eyes down” πŸ˜”

I thank God everyday for loving ❀ my son ,

My Son was not taken by God, He is a loving God ❀

God loved him before he was born ❀ and now is in God’s arms πŸ™

Amen πŸ™

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It is a sign of positive strength to say no and set boundaries

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You Are What You Think

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4 Things Bullies and Abusers Do When You Finally Speak Out About Their Abuse

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